my after school club (which i hated so much in real life and tried to change but my dream club rejected me) was having morning practice in our classrooms and i was late but really not on purpose this time. i even felt bad for hating it so much and being late as i was running towards my classroom. then, as i was going about to set up, im not sure what triggered it, but i saw my literature teacher who had suddenly become the teacher in charge for my after school club, and i started to fake cry like a madwoman into my palms and as i was fake crying i heard my literature teacher say something like we're trying to make it as smooth as it is for me because he knows i hate this club and he wants to help me get it done and over with and help me persevere til next year. i was asked to leave for a while and somebody was asked to accompany me. i remember seeing the girl my childhood crush used to have a crush on, the girl i tried my entire real life to embody in the most extreme ways, ignore me. in real life, i was best friends with this girl in the past. the first dream ends here. the second dream starts with me in one of my favourtie outfits i wore when i used ot be very slim in real life- now im not, and i was in my father's car and we were driving somewhere, i remember seeing my mother sitting beside me but i didn't see my father. i was walking around in. a mall i didnt recognise, it seemed like a lofty but empty hotel, all by myself and i think i had somewhere to go, but then i saw my childhood crush i didnt see in ages walk into a sushi restaurant. i even heard his voice - it was so clear and sounded exactly how i remembered his voice sounded like. i decided to linger around outside and stalk him from a distance. after the sushi restaurant, he went into the book store. it was then that i decided to walk into it behind him by a distance. i was browsing sections, pretending to look busy, and saw him walk into a private room of the book store from the corner of my eye. i heard his voice and saw a few/one, i cant remember, girls in the room with him. after a while, they all came out. i saw my best friend, my classmate and a girl i once went with together to a school france immersion trip. i waved to all of them, my classmate said hi back, the girl didnt. i forgot what happened to my best friend, but i remmeber after this entire event in the dream i texted her and told her my past feelings for this boy and clarified what was going on. i went into another section to look at rilakkuma + sumikko gurashi merchandise and saw a lot of stuff that caught my eye, like a beautiful hand bag and plushies, and couldn't wait to purchase them with my bookstore vouchers that i won a while back. while i was queuing at the cashier, i saw my crush and i stared at him. he didn't notice anything. after this whole event was over i learnt that my childhood crush organised a get-go and a hangout and invited everybdoy except for me.
Dreams often reflect our subconscious feelings, desires, and past experiences, and your dreams seem to encapsulate a wide array of emotions and situations from your waking life. Let’s delve into the key themes of each dream and their potential interpretations.
After School Club: The setting of the club you disliked but felt compelled to attend indicates a discomfort or obligation in your life, perhaps related to social situations or group dynamics. The fact that you felt bad for being late shows an awareness of your responsibilities, even if you don't enjoy them.
Literature Teacher's Support: Seeing your literature teacher in this scenario may represent a desire for guidance or support in your current life struggles. The teacher's understanding of your sentiments towards the club suggests that you may yearn for validation or empathy in situations that feel oppressive.
Fake Crying: This act can symbolize the release of pent-up frustrations or emotions. Although you were pretending, it might point to a real frustration that you’re grappling with but find hard to express authentically.
Childhood Crush and Friendship Dynamics: Seeing the girl your childhood crush was interested in, especially someone you once wanted to emulate, may reveal feelings of insecurity or competition in your life. This scenario illustrates your reflections on past relationships and the way they have shaped your self-image.
Favorite Outfit and Past Perception: Wearing a favorite outfit tied to a slimmer version of yourself reflects your feelings about body image and self-acceptance. The contrast between past and present may indicate a struggle with self-esteem or nostalgia.
Driving with Family: The family context feels protective but also suggests a need for direction or clarity as you navigate your troubles.
Encountering Your Crush: This part of the dream is indicative of unresolved feelings or nostalgia tied to past relationships. Stalking him slightly could signify a reluctance to confront those feelings or a longing for a connection that seems out of reach.
Seeing Friends but Feeling Excluded: The interaction with friends and being ignored may highlight feelings of loneliness or the fear of being left out. It taps into themes of social anxiety and the desire for acceptance.
Rilakkuma and Sumikko Gurashi Merchandise: These whimsical elements could symbolize a desire for comfort, happiness, or nostalgia for your childhood. They represent joy and simplicity amidst complex emotions.
Feeling Excluded from the Get-Together: This really drives home the anxiety related to social connections and feelings of rejection. It highlights worries about inclusion in social circles and fears about not being valued or remembered.
Both dreams depict a struggle with identity, belonging, and the complexities of your social relationships. Themes of rejection and nostalgia intertwine with your experiences in friendship, self-image, and the support system you desire. They highlight your mind's processing of past relationships, current feelings about yourself, and your need for understanding from others.
Consider reflecting on your current emotions about friendships, self-image, and avenues for seeking support. Therapists often suggest journaling about such dreams to explore deeper emotions and areas of life you may wish to address or change.